there was a point for months where I painted halo clouds. I wasnt sure why but they came out of me like idiocy flows out of hollywood. Then I saw this video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZwH18sM3FU&feature=related
Sunday, May 2, 2010
stress
Sometimes I push myself so hard that I have mini breakdowns where all I can do is sit in a bar for two days and read and ignore my phone. I just have a mini stress snap and I give myself two days to repair the alex brain and then I snap back. There are times few and far between where I cant face up to the reality of how much work I have to do or how to handle my deadlines. The funny thing is 5-6 years of doing yellow page covers I nev er missed a deadline. I know what is a fungible deadline and what is a deadline that if you dont hit you die. There aint no such thing as holding up the presses on a million yellow pages. I have been yelled at screamed at by my art director at paced around my apt at 5:30 with a 9:00am deadline. It is no way to live but I need the fear and the fire to paint. I am not a person who hacks out art, I put my passion and soul into everything I do and when it aint singing it is no good. Be good or go home. I have known people who have had big nervous breakdowns. that must be terrible. I am smart enough to go into self therapy mode when I start mumbling from stress. I bend like a tree in the wind and then I get back into the arena and start working harder than ever. Know thyself....
Saturday, May 1, 2010
thoughts for a day
A friend of mine was in Iraq and he logged into my blog and watched my video of me sitting in the snow in front of my last supper painting. He said it changed his outlook and made him feel positive and he carried that feeling with him on a mission they had to do the next day. This is why I make art, this is why I fight a battle that I can barely stomach half the time.
Stress
I am going to school to be a doctor. I cant handle the stress of art. where is my labcoat? My scrubs....
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